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My goal for this year is to simply live life to the fullest.

I feel like just in the past month, I've learned a lot and my eyes have been open to so much. I've met so many people this past year through unorthodox circumstances and have realized so many things. Life is too short to waste on caring what other people think about me, or even being miserable by myself. Life is just long enough to show people how much love and care one has to offer, and to feel as much joy as possible.

Last night, I went to my BFF's place. He's really awesome and I feel like he really lives life to the fullest. He's so chill and doesn't take life too seriously; that's the type of person I want to be. I want to be able to have fun and not get caught up in drama. I want to be able to just let things flow and care about the things that really matter in life. I've discovered in the past year that bitter and resentment are such a waste of time and energy, and that nothing good comes out of it.

There was another person I met this week whom I admired almost instantly. He told me, "There are a lot of things I like and everything I like, I'm equally passionate about." He told me that there was just too much to do and that he didn't think he would be able to finish everything he wanted to do in his lifetime. I love that mindset! The other day, I told Megan that there are a lot of things I should be, but will never be. But after meeting that guy, I realized that it's not true; I can be ANYTHING and even if I never reach a totally satisfactory goal, at least I'll die trying. And that's what matters. Why do we need an end goal in this world? Why are we so trapped up in the idea that if something seems unachievable, then it's not worth pursuing? Another thing he said to me was that as long as we do what we're passionate about, then everything falls into place. He said, "Never let money drive you to do anything, because as it turns out, if you follow your passions, the money just seems to come in anyway."

In conclusion, 2010 will be a year of passion and inspiration. Because I want to be passionate, and I want to be inspired. I've always felt like I needed something to click inside of me, that to have passion and inspiration were easy things. But it seems it's not so for me, so I need to chase after these things. I've never believed in love, but I want to love and I want to be loved. I want to be free and I want to be responsible and I want to work hard. I don't want to be lazy and bedridden. I want to be neat. I want to be healthy. I want to know how to make the perfect cup of tea. I want to meet more people from everywhere, because another awesome person I happened to meet by chance this year told me that it's all about the people. And looking back, I've realized that it really is all about the people. Not about what they think, but the effect they have on your life.

This year will be the year to be free. Bring it on.